Tough day.... Thank goodness for MOM

Today has been a very rough day! My exercise yesterday was all about my legs. And well I feel like I want to die. Like seriously this hurts so bad. It hurts to bend over, cause my back is killing me and it hurts to try to sit on the sofa, cause getting up takes all my strength to overcome the pain.

I felt like quitting today, not so much cause of the exercise, but I am sure that has a little to do with it. But because of the food. I don't even necessarily want to eat bad, but I want to eat better tasting foods. I am on such a strict and in my opinion bland diet, that I am well overwhelmed by it. I just want a little spice, but have been told no for now. That I have to make it 12 weeks, before we add any of that in. 12 weeks seems like forever, when I am not even done with the 1st one. Which problem makes this seem so stupid to already be feeling this way, but ugghhh.. I am already a picky eater and I am eating literally the same things day after day. I am bored already.

I called Mom tonite, I just didn't feel like keeping going. The only thing that has been keeping me going at this point is thinking about my free lunch Saturday when I can eat whatever I want. Food has such a hold over me, its so dumb but it does. I keep thinking do I want chipolte chicken nachos from Houlihans, or so I want a cheeseburger or even a sub sandwich. Thank goodness for Mom, she talked to me telling me I can do this and just think about how much better I will feel in 12 weeks, and that well think about all the things I will be able to do.

So..... at this point I am persevering. Satan is trying to keep me in his strong hold and pulling me to food. But I will not let him get a hold of me. I am a child of God and I can do this because I have God with me and I will not forget that! So if anyone is reading this, if well you could say a little prayer of strength for me that would be great. Cause well now I have to stand up and I am so not looking forward to the pain. But hey cant loose weight and get healthy without some pain!